How is it that I cry “future tears…today”? I cry these “future tears…today” for the day I know you will walk away with the bits and pieces of me that I freely gave to you. I cry “future tears…today” for the days, weeks, months and years that go by and you don’t even think of me and the “future tears” I was crying for you today. I cry “future tears…today” because I know you are with the woman you dreamed of when you and I were “together”… whatever that means. I cry “future tears…today” because I saw our Future go away…today
I am feeling good today, I oral surgery on Thursday and had 4 wisdom teeth and a tooth that I had a root canal done on last year or so. So right now I have 5 holes in my mouth. I am taking Hydrocodone for pain. Whew! I am so glad that I finally had this done. My little sister is here from Columbia, MO and I really miss her and hanging out with her laughing and being silly like we always have. I have $4.85 in my bank account because I have paid all my bills, and I am waiting for payday. Wow, life is good.
There is a certain level of trust that should be present in a relationship, it is nonexistent right now in my current one.
Yes, It’s Monday again. Yesterday I was very domestic in doing the Momma thing. I woke up and got dressed for church, attended service with my 6 year old son Eric. I came home, did more laundry that I started early yesterday morning. I started dinner, folded more clothes, served dinner to Mr. 43 and the Mary Kay lady (Best friend Adrienne), Took my niece home, came home and anticipated…Monday. Again.
Don’t ignore the obvious…When someone has shown you who they are, you should believe them.
So this morning I am at the gym working out with Mr. 43, and I am working out along side him, wondering if we will be doing this same thing, this same time next year. We have been in this boyfriend/girlfriend thing since 8/22/10, and I would like for us to get married and settle down once my divorce is final. Hopefully, we have no more road blocks and we can get this thing to work as planned